Wednesday 15 April 2009

凌亂

今天第二次進他的房間,第一次是初診,已經是一年多前的事。

我仔細看一切的佈局,實而不華,桌面的玻璃下是一些證書,桌上有一個小小的人體模型
一台電腦、一疊散亂的文件,旁邊是文具、水杯,還有翻到港聞版的頭條日報,隨意又凌亂。心寬的人不太注意細節,不會對其他人構成太大的壓力。還以為他是超整齊的人,其實......這樣更有親切感。

我躺在床上,在冰箱的反映下,看見了那幅畫,那張卡還塌在上面,這樣子,可能一放就一個世紀。不過
對送禮的人和接受禮物的人來說,最快樂的是過程,對方如何處理,已超越了我們的管轄範圍。

1 comment:

  1. Absolutely agree with you! the process is the happiest thing!
    I sent an e-mail to Mr.A yesterday! I said happy birthday to him (his birthday is on 21/4) I also said i will send a present to him.  After i sent the emial, i felt very guilty...how can i do that again? since my depression hasn't yet disappeared, i sent an email to another man...oh god! Actually,i don't think he will reply me. But...he replied me, how come?? Something i won't expect to be happened, he always appeared again! he said he just came back from syney. i am so confused to myself... 
    Now i still see the chinese doctor and take the chinese medicine, but my worries and depression are still in my mind, the only solution for myself is to pray to god often!

    ReplyDelete